I surrender

On Friday morning before I left to do the final things for our Assessment Conference, I felt the need to just sit and soak in a few moments with the Lord to prepare myself for what was coming. I had Phil Laeger’s CD in my player and went to “I Surrender”:

I surrender my life to Your blood
I surrender my name for Your glory
I surrender my heart to Your will
I surrender my dreams to the plans You have for me
Thank You for showing me the emptiness of all I held onto
I surrender it all,I surrender my everything for You.

I sat in my kitchen with my eyes closed and prayed that prayer. I had no idea what would happen this weekend, but I knew it would be demanding, exhausting and emotional. I was afraid I was going in with too much of my own agenda and so surrendered myself to whatever God wanted to do. Wow! He was faithful! First in a practical way, it all ran pretty smoothly and even when some things went wrong we remained calm. The leadership team couldn’t have been better – they were just what we needed. The translators did a fantastic job and were happy to be part of this exciting weekend. The delegates had a great time and we sensed today at the end of it that the Lord was doing some new and challenging thing in many of their lives. So, it’s over. In reality, it is only the beginning of a huge job which I cannot do in my own strength or with my own wisdom. But, seeing once again how God provides all that we need, I can be at peace (sort of) for the future. And tomorrow – I don’t have to set my alarm!