Some days I really want to be home and I think today is one of them. I'm really tired too so I'm sure that is affecting my feelings. I just had a note about my friend Pam who is going through really tough days, as are her friends as they help care for her. I'd love to be home to help out and support them during this time. And some events here in the last few days have made me wonder if I really belong here. So, the combination makes me just want to go home. But, that's not going to happen (nor should it) so I have to find a way to offer support and love to Pam from here. And I have to figure out what role I'm supposed to fill here, outside of the job I'm assigned to. Maybe later I'll write more about the basis for my 'out of place' feelings. I'm not at all miserable, just wondering...in fact, on the other hand I feel more comfortable and a part of the team than I ever have. We've had a lot of fun this week - it's kind of a strange mixture of emotions. Now I'm going to sleep and maybe tomorrow it will all be clear.
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