Estonia Pictures-click on pictures to enlarge

Thanksgiving with exchange student from Hong Kong and eating alone!









Chatting with the Wildes (Oscar and some Estonian) and great sign in Tartu









Tallinn - Old Town

Happy Thanksgiving! from Tartu

What's Thanksgiving like in Estonia? Liz and I left Riga on Wednesday on the bus to Tartu - it was great. A minibus with reclining seats, heat and it was clean. The trip took about four hours and was a nice drive. The trees were frosted and we got to see some pretty little towns along the way. We are staying with the Clarks, corps officers in Tartu. They have a house church, which is also their home, so we are staying in the chapel. It's great! On Thanksgiving we joined about 40 Americans at someone's house. Once we entered the house, it felt like we were in America for the rest of the day. The house was huge and there was food everywhere. They even had an American flag hanging from the stairwell. We had a slow start - Tim and Evelyn had to arrive late and dropped us off into a house with strangers. That was OK, until we got our food and were directed to go down stairs to eat - just Liz and I. We sat and ate for a long time and no one joined us. The rest of the 40 people were eating somewhere else. It was very funny and a little awkward. When Tim and Evelyn arrived we came upstairs and joined them, but for a while we thought maybe Latvians weren't allowed to mingle with the Estonians. I suppose if we were sensitive girls, we might have been offended, but instead we laughed about it. After that I had a nice time with the group and had several good conversations with Americans, some from the Chicago area and some students from Hong Kong and Italy. The food was amazing - or maybe it was just normal Thanksgiving food but I ate and ate. Today we went with Evelyn and Chris (their son) to see the new Harry Potter movie. I loved it - the rest gave it mixed reviews. Then a couple of hours roaming around lovely Tartu. It is a beautiful city and maybe when it's warmer I'll return. Tomorrow we will go to Tallin for the day. I thought often about my family and friends yesterday. It was nice to be with new friends and I did enjoy the day, but I really missed you all. I thank God for you!

Enjoy the experience

Iwoke up today and decided that no matter what I am going to have fun and not lose my joy during this process of making a training program and all that goes with it, including a broken computer. It's much less stressful trying to have fun than getting myself all worked up about things. So, I took Misa with me to return my computer (again) to the computer shop because I hoped that a Latvian speaking male would make a difference. I'm not sure he did but we had a nice, colddddd walk and trolley bus ride and good conversation along the way. I have to make sure I find time to talk with Misa once ina while - I always get blessed. I'm plugging away at my 'to do' list and making some progress. And I had the best hair cut today! My favorite part of getting my hair cut is the wash and today my lady, Ieva, took forever washing my hair. I nearly fell asleep it was so relaxing. And since we couldn't really communicate I had a nice quiet time. I got home and fixed a pre-Thanksgiving dinner of ham and real baked sweet potatoes loaded with butter and brown sugar - mmmmmm! I'm going to Estonia for Thanksgiving and expect a great meal, but I couldn't wait! Then I've had emails from all of my family and some friends. So, all in all it's been a really nice (and fun) ordinary day in Latvia!

Life and computers

I planned to write about getting my computer back and then show you some fun pics from our latest Leadership Training Day but...after I downloaded the pictures and deleted them from my camera of course, my computer died again. And this time I think it's for good. I got it back from the shop today and had a funny feeling about the quality of repair they might have done. I should have trusted my instinct. I think they put some old or mismatched parts in and now it's fried (my official computer expert opinion.) I'd like to say I'm very calm about the whole thing but I'm afraid my life these days is very dependent on that computer and what I have stored on it. Anyway, enough whining. Liz has graciously loaned me her computer while she is gone for a few days, so I can do some things. Tomorrow is Latvian Independence Day and a holiday for us. It's also Sian's birthday. There is a party tomorrow afternoon. Otherwise, I'm free! I'm hoping to clean house and get my life/work organized this weekend. Maybe some shopping on Saturday. This week I sent out a notice about praying for Latvia tomorrow. My friends at home forwarded it to the OBT corps email list and some other places, too I think. I've had so many responses from people who will be praying for us. My newsletter also got sent out and again, so many wonderful and encouraging notes from home and around the world. I am very blessed with such amazing support. If you think about Latvia tomorrow - pray for us!

Little events during the last few days

Thursday evening I went to the Bible Institute again...on the right tram. On the way home there was a man with his little boy on the tram. The man seemed to want people to notice that he was a good dad, trying to get someone to appreciate his son. I fell for it as they were getting off the tram. I smiled at the boy, he promptly turned away from his dad and spit at me! That didn't stop me from trying to be friendly, well, I did ignore the boy. But when I got off the tram there were a couple men trying to get directions. They spoke English so I asked if they understood what they had been told. We walked and talked for a couple of blocks when one of them said 'Your English is quite good.' DUH...my polite reply was that I was American. I don't know if I should be offended that he thought English was my second language or glad that he thought I was a native Latvian! I woke up at 3 a.m. that night thinking about how to train Lieutenants. My life is definitely out of control. When I got up in the morning I panicked because I realized I hadn't studied for my Latvian class. I decided confession was the best option, so I called Dace. She had too much to do and was glad to cancel. So, it was to be a day at home getting my house together and my work. I went to coffee break, put a carmel in my mouth and pulled out a cap from my tooth! AUGH! No worry - I just popped it back on and am trying to eat carefully. I suppose someday I will have to face a dentist but not yet. In the mddle of that our accountant started asking me budget questions. Once again the panicked feeling - I wanted to run away! I'm afraid I was a bit rude to him. After a few hours of just being alone, I went to see Zoe who was having a bad day. We talked and played with Sian for a while and later that evening went for a walk and to my new favorite coffee shop. Good cafe au lait and even, pecan pie! That is not a typical Latvian treat. We walked to the president's castle where there were hundreds of people and hundreds of candles lit for Lacplesa Day (like Veteran's day.) It was nice. Today is a leadership training day, which I'm responsible for. I managed to arrange it so that I'm not teaching workshops but had the first session. I had a power point ready and when I turned on my computer ------it died. I mean dead, no screen, nothing. Can I say - another panicked moment. I'm not good at backing up and with traveling between offices don't save on the network. But, life will go on - somehow. No boring days in my life! I'd like just one...

Joy!

You can see on their faces the joy they have! They are such a blessing. Last night we had a more serious than usual discussion and I found myself feeling very protective and pastoral about them. We do have a confidentiality agreement, but I think I can say that everyone of them deals with some kind of discouragement, misunderstanding or even abuse at home and/or school because of their faith and especially because they are so involved with Pestisanas Armija. It's easy for me to talk about witnessing to my family and friends, but I don't face what they do. It occurred to me that they really need something much deeper than what I am providing. And after January, I won't be able to do this at all. So, pray with me that we find a solution for that, please.

I've been reading Agressive Christianity by Catherine Booth with Cory Harrison. Cory was one of my camp staff kids when I was a divisional youth secretary. Now he's all grown up and publishing books! I'm so old! Anyway, admittedly I don't always agree with or understand everything Catherine has written, but if she is anything she is challenging. And Cory makes her even more so. He defines this book as The Salvation Army's manual of evangelism to millenium three warriors. Here are some quotes that are significant for me and I don't mean as I look at the Army and judge it, I mean for my own spiritual journey:

We have been deceived in 'regards to the standards of our own relationship with Jesus and to our responsibility to the world.' 'The church, almost as a whole, has adopted an "It's all about me religion!"'

'If you don't want to raise your life to the standard of this righteousness, fine, but for the sake of the children, and for the children not yet even born, don't drag it down and try to make God's standards meet your little, insignificant , confined experience.'

'Do you want to know how to win the world for Jesus? Show people a real, living, self-sacrificing, hard-working, sweating, victorious life and the people will be influenced and transformed by it...'

'Faith that is EXPRESSED IN LOVE is everything.'

'There is no improving the future, without disturbing the present. The difficult part of it all is getting people to be disturbed.'

Odds and ends

Some odds and ends of life in Latvia. Today was another Latvian lesson with Dace – she is so patient with me. I seem to be able to fill out the grammar charts and remember a few words, but putting it all together is so hard. Anyway, it’s fun learning with Dace and I do think I’m making slow progress. I haven’t asked her what she thinks – that’s too risky! Tonight our training program began, preliminarily. All of those students to-be are attending a Bible Course at the Riga International Bible Institute. We are partnering with them for some intro level courses. I planned to be there early to meet them and talk with the Institute staff. Well….I confidently got on the wrong tram and since I was in my own little world, I was nearly out of Riga before I realized I had been on the tram for far too long and I had no idea where we were! Fortunately, I have some sense of the system, so I just got off, headed on the return tram and then met up with the right one. Instead of being early I made a grand entrance just as they were starting the class. That meant I got a front row seat, facing the students! Since I’m not taking the class I quietly left during the tea break. I was happy with the teaching and if it hadn’t been that it was a intro class and that I was sitting in a very awkward place, I might have stayed just to enjoy listening. I got on the right tram going home (just in case you were worried!)

I have to tell you the latest about my small group…we are studying Witnessing 101 (dumb name but you can figure out the lessons.) Each week we give an update about the people on our list who need to hear about Jesus. This week many of them had made great progress and a couple had brought their friends to the corps. This Sunday was Youth Worship Service and the girls were prominent in the leadership. The meeting was really exciting – high energy and fun. I think every one of them has potential to do amazing things as leaders in the church and who knows where else. Also, some of their friends came – some for the first time, others returning. That’s really cool – they don’t have the same reservations about talking about Jesus that some of us do. I've tried to upload some pictures but it's not working - maybe later.

Oslo

A couple of weeks ago, on a whim I bought a ticket to visit my ICO friend, Jan Harald and his family in Oslo, Norway and took that trip this week.  I left early on Monday morning and after a few minutes in a long line at the Riga airport the computers went down.  It was a mess – 5 or 6 flights all leaving within 10 minutes of each other and no one obviously in charge of the plan.  It felt less like a developing country and more like an underdeveloped (or like Chicago Midway Airport and Southwest Airlines) I made it though and when I got on the plane there was Olesja!  She’s one of the girls from the corps and a good friend who is studying to be a flight attendant.  What a funny and happy surprise.

Monday night I went to Oslo Temple band practice and ended up being THE solo horn!  It’s why I don’t like to announce “I played in the CSB for 8 years!”  Because, I don’t usually add “second horn only.”  Anyway, it was fun and fortunately not a very serious practice and 2 of the pieces I knew pretty well.  I was a disaster at the high notes (a new horn and not playing for over a year, except one wedding while I was home – blah, blah, blah) but otherwise survived OK.  We came back to watch the last game of the World Series (3 days late) and I tried to explain a little bit of baseball to Jan and his wife, Eli. (Because I’m such an expert!)  One of my goals for this trip was to get some organizing done without the regular interruptions of working in Riga.  I did have some time to do that but of course not enough – I really need a couple of weeks without interruption but that won’t happen.  We visited the Nobel Peace Center one afternoon.  It has some really powerful media presentations – very thought provoking and challenging, especially to an American Christian.  Maybe I’ll think and blog more about that later.  The weather was awful – foggy and rainy – so not much sightseeing got done and if you can believe it, I didn’t take one picture.  I’ll have to return at a better time of the year.  

It was great to talk to Jan and Eli and get some perspective on my little world.  Sometimes I think life begins and ends here and especially with my work.  Of course, that’s not true and I need to be aware of the needs of my friends in other places.  

Lots of other things have been happening, but I’ll save them for another blog entry.  

Go Chicago!

Yesterday: I woke up early (5 a.m.) so I could listen to the end of the World Series game. I'm too cheap to pay to listen at mlb.com so I listened online to WGN radio in Chicago who were practically doing a play by play. I could hear the cheers from fans in Chicago when the White Sox won. OK, I admit I am a Cubs fan but mostly, I'm a Chicago fan so I'm just happy for the city. It is one of those "I wish I was home for this" moments, though. From that excitement (which no one in Latvia cares one bit about) I spent the morning with a few of the leaders and a group from the UK Raynes Park corps who have committed to support our church planting efforts. It was a nice morning. I am constantly amazed at the number of people who have an interest in God's work in Latvia. In the evening, Liz and I went to the ballet (again!) to see Romeo and Juliet. It was a bit more modern ballet expression, but also very good and the orchestra was great. We also found a new restaurant which serves excellent Italian food. So, a very eclectic day for me.

Fall in Latvia

The leaves are falling fast and we even had a touch of snow this week. Here are some pics from my fall getaway weekend with the Smiths. It was beautiful. (a fun picture of my small group from last night also included)
from the highest mountain (hill) in Latvia
Sian plays in the leaves
Lots of castle ruins in our exploration and beautiful sites
Smiles!

Mission and Prayer Conference

I’m going to start backwards about the Mission and Prayer Conference – tonight’s small group. I asked the girls what they thought about the weekend. It was hard for a few of them because they missed some due to work. But, all seemed to feel good about it and then when I asked specific questions they got very excited. On Saturday we went out on the streets of Riga to pray with people and they had great stories about that – overcoming shyness and being bold in approaching people – all much better than me. I used language as my excuse for standing on the corner and just praying silently. Anyway, then I shared the dream/hope I got during the weekend. It started as I read Red Moon Rising and kept building all weekend. It was confirmed by our guest, Lyndall Bywater, 24-7 coordinator for the Army in the UK. I want to see a Boiler Room (community prayer room – see www.24-7prayer.com) in Riga which would draw together many churches and youth organizations. And while we were out praying I found the building. It’s on the corner of our street and ever since I’ve been here people have been saying (and praying) that they want someone to take over the building who would help the community and clean it up. Why not a Boiler Room? The girls eyes got big and I could sense they agreed with my dream. After some coaxing one of them shared her own dream – that we would have a big worship music festival (like Cornerstone) in Meža Parks. My eyes got big, too. I began to dream about combining the whole thing, making some contacts with connections from my youth department networking days and off we went! Of course, this has nothing to do with the huge task I’m involved in right now and there is no way I could give time to anything like this. But, we can keep sharing the dream and eventually the right people will hear and get inspired, I think!

Red Moon Rising

Quotes from Red Moon Rising (some of these concepts also taught by Lyndall Bywater at our Mission and Prayer Conference)

God uses young people again and again to help restore nations and shape their destiny.  Young people stand at the heart of the salvation story.  Re: Evangelism/Harvest:  Our opportunities are those of the World Wide Web, budget travel, the rise of tribalism and the postmodern desire for community, authentic spirituality and social justice.

Lectio divina:  God’s very self ‘breaks in upon the middle of our prayer, runs to meet us in all haste and restores our weary soul.’

The Vision:  The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes.  It makes children laugh and adults angry.  It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars.  It scorns the good and strains for the best.  It is dangerously pure.

The ultimate 24-7 prayer room is the human heart fully surrendered to God and not a room full of coffee mugs and hand-drawn pictures!  We don’t want to withdraw people from society to live in spiritual bubbles of perpetual prayer, rather we want to immerse ourselves in society, having immersed ourselves in the Spirit – in the world and yet full of God and overflowing.  Maybe this is a new day in which the fullness of God awaits us in the streets and clubs and pubs.  Of course God will attend our meetings…But perhaps there is a weariness, even a reluctance, in his heart as he gazes back over his shoulder, out of the church door and into the street.  We’ve spent (30) years saying “come, Holy Spirit” and he came.  Now, if the Spirit says “come”, the question is this:  Will we obey?  ‘Some want to live within the sound of church or chapel bell; I want to run a rescue shop within a yard of hell.’ (C.T. Studd)

Jesus was intimate with the Father in prayer.  This gave him, and will give us, the passion to continue whatever the odds in loving our neighbor in whatever context God places us.

All of this and more prepared me for our conference and for God moving and speaking to me.  Not sure how it all fits together yet.  I’ll write more about the conference later.  

Pray!

In just a few hours our mission and prayer conference will start and already we have experienced the powerful presence and leading of the spirit as the leadership team met today. Also, already we have experienced the battle that brings - electrical problems in the hall, cold/flu among the leaders, typical leadership struggles with other leaders which seem magnified because they came as we were praying for this weekend. So, if you think about us this weekend - pray, please. We know God has something extraordinary He wants to do in and through us and we have no idea what that might be. I have a sense it is about the people of Latvia taking up the mantle of leadership and specifically the youth. I can't wait to tell you what happens!

I can do all things?

When I was young I took Philippians 4:13 as my verse: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Didn’t everyone?  But, I had no idea what it would really mean and I’m not sure I really believed that I could do all things.  Then, I ‘matured’ and started to believe I could do all things, but not in Christ’s strength.  Simply with my own marvelous personality and giftedness.  So, I came to Latvia and experienced the opposite – I couldn’t do anything in my own strength or with my own ingenuity.  I was completely humbled (and often humiliated.)  Now, I’m headed again toward taking this verse as my own.  Why?  Because I have experienced over and over again that God does give me strength and everything else that is needed for tasks that I think are impossible.  Do I think the process of humility is over?  Oh no, I expect I will be humbled many times in the days to come.  But, do I believe I can do all things through Christ?  Oh yes, much more than I ever believed before I came to Latvia.  It is a process of understanding my own weakness so that I can be strong with the power of God at work in me.  Am I proud? – only of what God is doing.  I know I’m only one ego step away from creating a disaster and I have to rely on God the whole way.  It’s a fun and adventurous place to be.  

I surrender

On Friday morning before I left to do the final things for our Assessment Conference, I felt the need to just sit and soak in a few moments with the Lord to prepare myself for what was coming. I had Phil Laeger’s CD in my player and went to “I Surrender”:

I surrender my life to Your blood
I surrender my name for Your glory
I surrender my heart to Your will
I surrender my dreams to the plans You have for me
Thank You for showing me the emptiness of all I held onto
I surrender it all,I surrender my everything for You.

I sat in my kitchen with my eyes closed and prayed that prayer. I had no idea what would happen this weekend, but I knew it would be demanding, exhausting and emotional. I was afraid I was going in with too much of my own agenda and so surrendered myself to whatever God wanted to do. Wow! He was faithful! First in a practical way, it all ran pretty smoothly and even when some things went wrong we remained calm. The leadership team couldn’t have been better – they were just what we needed. The translators did a fantastic job and were happy to be part of this exciting weekend. The delegates had a great time and we sensed today at the end of it that the Lord was doing some new and challenging thing in many of their lives. So, it’s over. In reality, it is only the beginning of a huge job which I cannot do in my own strength or with my own wisdom. But, seeing once again how God provides all that we need, I can be at peace (sort of) for the future. And tomorrow – I don’t have to set my alarm!

Newest Soldier in Latvia

Living in Riga

A few 'life in Riga' stories: Yesterday I went for an eye exam. The first requirement is to find an eye Dr. who speaks English. So, I did. She was great and we had no communication problems until she handed me a paper with lots of writing on it and said "Can you read this?" "No", I said "but it has nothing to do with my eyes - it's in Latvian!" Fortunately, she laughed but then didn't laugh as I actually tried to read it. Earlier that day I had my first Latvian class (level 1 1/2) which should be fun and maybe even helpful. There are five of us from around the world - Egypt, France, Japan, America and a Russian speaking Latvian. We all had different classes last spring so the poor teacher had a hard time trying to figure out what we know. We each have a different area of knowledge. Some know grammar (not me), some know vocabulary (I'm a bit better here) and others are somewhere in between (that would be me.) I didn't feel completely stupid in comparison to the rest. But, I have lost a lot of what I should know from my last class and need to do some studying. It seems to be a nice group and I like the teacher. So, what I learn may be limited by my brain, but just being with some people who aren't part of the Salvation Army will be refreshing.
Sunday evening I went to the opera and it was so good. I love Tchaikovsky and the orchestra was good. The harpist was amazing. The ballet was good too - I'm not a huge fan or expert, but they seemed to be high quality. Not perfect, but not amateurs either. I wouldn't mind going again. And it wasn't so bad being on my own. There were lots of tourists - mostly German speaking it seemed. So, I felt like I was the Latvian instead of a foreigner. One of the nicest things was that I met my friend, Jill during the intermission. She was in my first language class. We have been trying to get together but had no idea we would both be at the opera. So, that was a pleasant surprise. I had just been praying about connecting with her. I'm not sure I would call that a real answer to prayer but it was a blessing. As I was walking to the opera house a flock of noisy birds landed in the trees in the park. It hit me that the way they fly and chirp and filled the trees was a miracle of creation. It was a passing thought but I guess the idea of God as Creator was stuck in my mind. As I listened to the beautiful music and was amazed at the way the ballet dancers' bodies moved (mine doesn't do that!) I again thought what a miracle is creation - God didn't have to give us beautiful music or the ability to dance. He did that just for us and I believe to see in the beauty something of Himself. From nature to music to the miracle of our own bodies - God is trying to get us to see Him and fellowship with Him. I'm so thankful that I do have a relationship with Him and I know the Creator. That is amazing!
Sunday I was at Riga 2 for church because one of our candidates, Velta, was becoming a soldier (member) of the church that morning. Someday I'll tell you more about Velta, she is a miracle herself and the Lord is doing great and wonderful things in her life these days. Here we are - she's in her new uniform and I think she looks great! (trouble uploading photos - I'll try again later.)

My friend, Pam

I’m trying to work but honestly, my mind is somewhere else today. Here’s what I wrote in my journal last night:

Pam died yesterday. Lisa emailed me today. I was praying for Pam today and felt I didn’t need to pray so much for her but for Donna and her family and friends. I’m sure Pam was so tired and only wanted to be with Jesus. And now she is! Lisa says Donna’s OK – rejoicing. I’m so glad the Lord prepared her in that way. I’m weepy but think part of it is very selfish. I want to be home to share all of this with Oakbrook Terrace and THQ.

I had a lot of other things I wanted to post after yesterday. But, Pam is on my mind. I thank God for her life and her friendship. I’ve been listening to Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir this weekend and these words especially are what I pray Pam’s loved ones will experience:

Lord, I will lift up my eyes to the hills
Knowing my help is coming from You
Your peace You give me
In time of the storm

You are the source of my strength
You are the strength of my life
I lift my hands in total praise to You.
AMEN

Saturday in Riga

A view from above and a bit of the city

Salvation Army grid::blog

My turn - am I too late?

Weekend life

Last night I had Aivis, Sarah and Josh over for dinner, but we had it at their place!  Josh goes to bed early so it was easier to spend the evening there, but I wanted to fix dinner.  It was really fun. We didn’t do anything exciting, just eat and talk – 2 of my favorite things to do.  We tried to talk about things other than work, but I’m afraid we didn’t manage that very well.  Anyway, we had good conversation and listened to a Latvian Christian CD which I’m going to get – my first Latvian music purchase.  I definitely hope to have them over for dinner again!  Sarah has become a great encourager for me.  She and Aivis are such a blessing.
Thursday I sent out the prayer alert and what an amazing response I’ve had.  From Poland, Moscow, Indianapolis, Chicago, London and many other places I know that people are praying. And maybe the most precious assurance of prayer came last night as I was returning from Ilsters.  Miša met me in the stairway and told me that a few of them had been praying for the training program, but especially they were and would continue to pray for me.  He suggested I might find my home enchanted when I arrived (not sure what that meant but if it has anything to do with cleaning windows and dusting, I’d be really thrilled!)  I think the only other time I’ve felt such incredible prayer surrounding me was when my mom and dad died.  Those prayers carried me through a difficult time.  These prayers are going to bring us into something wonderful and exciting.  I keep thinking about Ephesians 3:20-21 “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, [21] to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. “  We are asking for God to do something really great, but the amazing thing is He can do even more than what we are asking and I have a feeling He is going to.  I don’t have any idea what that might be, but I pray that whatever it is, we will be sure to give Him the glory and that it will all be for His Kingdom’s sake.
Today was another of those perfect Saturdays. I slept in, went into Old Riga for a few hours and came home with no plans.  I read Harry Potter (Half Blood Prince) and listened to NPR online.  It’s fun to have that connection to home.  My excursion into the city was great, again.  I made a list of some of the ‘must see’ tourist sites and tried to get in a few.  I went to St. Peter’s church and took the lift to the top of the tower, which is supposed to be the highest church tower in Europe.  It was beautiful and I’ll try to download some pictures.  I also went to Doma church, which has the world’s (?) biggest organ.  Unfortunately it was being repaired and anyway, they charge an extra 2 lats to take pictures.  I’m hoping to go to an organ concert there this fall.  Speaking of Latvian cultural events, I’ve decided I need to do as much as possible before January because when training starts I really don’t know how much time or energy I will have to enjoy the city/country.  So, I stopped at the opera house and bought a ticket to see Swan Lake tomorrow.  I haven’t been to many ballets in my lifetime, but Latvia is supposed to have a great ballet company.  Riga is a very cultural city and there are always concerts, exhibits and something to celebrate.  I have been waiting to find someone to do all these things with but that hasn’t happened.  So I’m doing some on my own.  Later this fall Graeme, Zoe and I, with Sian of course, are going to take a long weekend out in the country.  That will be fun and we are exploring an area none of us have seen before, so that will make it even better.  I talked with Dace about going out again for a day.  We will head toward western Latvia because I haven’t seen anything that way.  This fall should be a real Latvian experience for me.

Prayer Alert

Here is a prayer newsletter sent out officially from my office.  If you think about praying for us, would you also add this personal request?  I am very concerned about being able to clearly and effective communicate these most important matters to the candidates, mostly via translation.  I know I’ve said it before, but next weekend is probably the most significant thing I will have done yet in Latvia and while the future of Latvia does not lay in my hands, I have a vital role in helping people to understand the commitment they are making and the demands of being in the training program.  So, please pray that my words would be clear and that the translators would be extraordinarily gifted to communicate the heart of the matter.

Now the official prayer concerns:

The Training and Education Office exists to support the Latvia Region in the area of Leadership Development and Multiplication by providing training opportunities in three key areas:
1.) Develop Existing Leaders  
2.) Raise Up Local Leadership in Corps/Institutions
3.) Raise Up New Officers
Will you support us by praying for the following important matters related specifically to Raising up New Officers in Latvia :

• Assessment Conference, 7-9 October, 2005 where prospective candidates for officership, both cadets and lieutenants, will join together for interviews and discussion about God’s calling on their lives and the process for becoming an officer.


• 12 prospective candidates for officership as they complete the application process and prepare themselves for training to become Salvation Army officers in Latvia.  Praise God that they have responded willingly.  Pray that they will continue to be obedient to God’s voice.


• Latvian Candidates’ Board as they review the candidates’ applications and give recommendations as to their acceptance for training.


• The training program which is being created by Evie Diaz, Training Officer and a working committee.  The main outlines of the plan have been sent to THQ for review and approval. The remaining details need to be developed in the next few weeks.  Pray that all of these plans would become the tool for training effective officers for the future work of The Salvation Army in Latvia.


• The start of the Training Program for cadets and lieutenants is scheduled for January 9, 2006.  Additional instructors, translators and resources are still needed.


• Other soldiers of The Salvation Army in Latvia who have not yet responded to God’s call to give themselves for full time service as an officer.  The time is quickly passing for the opportunity to join the training program in January, 2006.  If you are one of these people, you should contact your corps leader or Evie Diaz before the Assessment Conference begins, 7 October.

Learning Latvian

The Latvian language belongs to the Baltic group of the Indo-European family of languages. Its closest and only living relative is Lithuanian (Latvian is a non-Slavic and a non-Germanic language). Latvian has inherited a lot from the Indo-European proto-dialects, and as well as Lithuanian, it has preserved a lot of archaic features in its sound system and grammar. Typologically Latvian is a fissional, inflectional language. Latvian nouns have 7 cases, verbs may inflect for tense, mood, voice and person. There is also a rich system of derivational affixes. The order of clause constituents is relatively free. The majority of speakers distinguish between two tones or intonations in long syllables. Latvian stresses the first syllable of each word and vowel length may occur in an unstressed syllable.

maza grupa

What do you do?

What do you do when 8 young women show up filled with energy, chatter, are very hungry and don’t want to leave? Let them in and enjoy the time. My small group started officially tonight and they are going to be a handful, a blessing but a handful. They love to talk - often all at once and in English and Latvian together. They love to eat – whatever I put out is gone when they are. They love Jesus – that’s the blessing of being with them. We are studying “Witnessing 101” and already have a list of several family members and friends who need to hear about Jesus. It’s so exciting to think about what God is going to do through these girls, as they learn more about sharing their faith and we pray together weekly for specific people. The corps is doing once a month outreach Sundays and that fits perfectly with our study. There is something specific to invite their ‘lost’ ones to. I’m thinking about having a pizza party after church on one of those Sundays which they can bring their guests to, too. I think you will often read about this group and I would be grateful for your prayer support. I’m including pictures of some of them from last week’s girls’ night. Still trying to find a good name for us, any suggestions are welcome.

Kristin Caddy just told me about the Xanga blogsite for The Salvation Army at home. I checked out lots of the bloggers and was overwhelmed by their unashamed passion for Jesus. They are mostly young people and I’m not sure the older generation realizes the powerful movement that is happening among the youth in the Army. If anyone feels hopeless about the future of the Church and specifically, The Salvation Army, talk to a teen or college student. I’m sure they can tell you about all the amazing things happening among them. No, they aren’t perfect and beware, they will want to change things. The Army will not look the same when they are in charge. But, they are committed to who we are at our Roots and who we are supposed to be as part of the Kingdom on earth. They are excited about being Christians and believe it or not, about being Salvationists. I can’t wait to see what happens next!

Currently reading: Red Moon Rising, the Story of 24-7 Prayer. I’m reading it because the Army in Latvia is known for our powerful prayer life. We have our regional mission and prayer conference at the end of October and so, this is my personal preparation for that event. I expect you will be reading lots of quotes in the next few weeks. Here are a few: We need an army to arise because the poor and the oppressed are crying out to God for urgent intercession and some ray of hope.
There is no other place where the heart should be so free as before the mercy seat.
He loves us too much and has called us to too much to allow us to settle for less than full spiritual health.

Awesome God

How can I explain what an amazing answer to prayer I had today? I've been frozen in my brain over putting the curriculum schedule and calendar together for the Latvian training program. I look at all of the lists and information I have and go blank. In one of those inspired (really) moments, I decided to ask Zoe to help. She agreed and immediately put her teacher brain to the task. We sat down tonight and in less than 2 hours created the calendar for the first 6 months of the training program. God is awesome!

Girls, girls and more girls

Pestišanas Armija doesn’t attract a lot of men, especially young and sober ones. We have so many beautiful, smart and mature young women. Sometimes I wonder if they are too smart and confident. Not that that is a bad thing, but it might scare away the guys. Anyway, it is definitely a prayer concern for the future of the Church in Latvia. I don’t know if it is quite the same in the other churches, but from the lifestyle of most of the young men I see on the street, I would say Christianity is not having much of an impact on their way of life. On the positive side, we have loads of beautiful, smart and mature (or maturing) young girls and women. They are eager to learn and get involved. They also like to have fun. Friday evening Liz put together a regional girls’ night, with all those girlie kinds of activities like manicures, facials, hair styling and food and movies. Nearly 50 girls came and they did have fun! I have to admit I only stayed for about an hour, enough time to do a short Bible study and take some pictures.

I've been reading through some blogs linked to other Salvation Army blogs and my first reaction was "Hmm, maybe I don't have so much to say." Most of them seem to raise controversial issues, challenge some tradition or at least be much edgier than I am. I'm just trying to record a little of my daily life for my friends and whoever else lands here. And while I do 'have issues', maybe I'm at a stage in my life where they don't seem quite so vital. I wonder if I've gotten too content in a lazy way or if it's a good content, as Paul describes? Maybe it's a combination. Latvia has certainly caused me to take a look at traditions and the Army way. But, instead of me challenging the Army to change, I think the Lord has been challenging me to change. I still believe as I said earlier in my short blogging life, we need people to speak up and be controversial to keep the rest of us thinking and evaluating what is good about us and needs to be maintained and what is only kept for the sake of tradition and should be put aside for the sake of the Kingdom. My prayer is that I will listen to those who are calling us to take a look at who we are and that I will be discerning and obedient to the Spirit. Wow, from manicures to discernment in one posting...

Prayer for Poland

My prayer for The Salvation Army in Poland as the work is officially opened there this weekend: "Lord, you have already done amazing things through your team there. I pray that this weekend they will feel affirmed and encouraged and especially, certain that You are at work and want to continue Your movement in Poland. I pray especially for Vibeke, that You would give her vision and wisdom as she leads the team. I pray that you will protect her from temptation and discouragement. I pray that her relationship with Dick and her children will remain healthy and strong as she goes back and forth between Poland and France. I pray for Herve and the rest of the team, that they too will experience Your protection for themselves and their families. I pray that You will continue to show them Your purposes for The Salvation Army and their part in Your plan. I pray especially for this weekend. Send people to help them build Your kingdom - workers, visionaries, pray-ers, translators - all of the body parts necessary to keep Your kingdom growing and strong. I pray especially for the new Captains who will lead the work daily - send them support and friendship, help for their practical needs, emotional support for their transition into a new country and ministy and especially surround them with Your spirit and love them today. Thank you because You do all things well and You will do this, not for their sake or for mine but for the sake of Your Kingdom."

Please pray for this important weekend and the continuing work in Poland.

Psalm 16 revisited

from late November, 2004 - my version of Psalm 16

Keep me in You, for only in You am I secure and at peace.
I rejoicein Your saints here - Arija, Tanya, Regina, and so many more and younger!
You are my everything - past, present and future.
You have taken me to good, right places and given me amazing 'history'.
You are blessed because You are wise and so You bless me with Your guidance.
My eyes will look to You first and always,
because I cannot function any other way.
Only then is my heart joy-filled and content and my spirt peace-filled.
I do trust You because You will never leave me.
Your presence will always show me the way
And give me life, joy and adventure!

Simple pleasures

I’m a simple person! I’ve been in Stockholm for a couple of days (she says casually…) and am amused by the things that have brought me pleasure. I was in a grocery store last night wondering around and came upon Zataran’s Rice mixes. They were one of my favorite additions to any Mexican meal and I haven’t even thought about them since leaving the States. But, I was so happy to see them – I bought 2 boxes and already have a plan to fix a dinner for friends. Then today while I was in the very long line at the airport I started talking with the woman behind me who is from Chicago and we had a simple, comfortable conversation about life while waiting. She said as I went my way “Our conversation has made the time go much quicker.” I said I’m simple. But, here’s the surprise simple pleasure. I’m sitting at the gate waiting and a plane has just arrived from Riga. After hearing so many Swedes, I realized that it was comforting and ‘normal’ to hear Latvian. And I subconsciously began thinking in Latvian (OK, limited but still) because there was a loud noise and my first thought was not “what is that” but “Kas tas ir”? Forši! (Cool!)

About my days in Stockholm, I’ll work backwards. Yesterday afternoon I shared our training proposal with the staff at the college here. While they are very interested and supportive, I ended that time realizing again that I’m really on my own. But, they did affirm the work we have done and were very encouraging about that plan. I needed that. I spent the morning teaching the cadets and Bible school students about worship. It was fun and they were very responsive, in spite of some language hindrances. For instance, I used “worship” to describe a way of life and a specific event and as an action word. It was very confusing for them, because there isn’t a comparable word in Swedish. But, they let me know and I think that the conversation and thought process that followed was good for them and me. I need to be clearer and more careful. When I arrived on Wednesday, Johanna met me and took me to her home for dinner. We had such a nice time and again I felt a real connection between she and Anders and me, which is such a blessing. It was a quick dinner but I’m glad we managed to fit it in. And the food was great!

Sometimes I'm slow

Why do I fret and fuss about things for no reason? I've been complaining about going to Sweden to teach a day of classes on Worship. I love this subject and I love teaching, but I've been whiny anyway. So, today when I sit down to put it together I find I'm energized and excited about the day. Why does it take me so long?

Besides teaching, I'll also get to spend some time with Johanna. That will be special I know. So, now I'm looking forward to the trip. No more whining! I promise!

Here comes the mystery

I finished Out of the Question… last night. You know I love Leonard Sweet’s writing, but I had a ‘stupid’ moment while reading. Here’s what he writes:

The science of chaos and nonequilibrium physics is based on embracing uncertainty and unpredictability while knowing that underlying everything is a fundamental interconnectedness, purposefulness, and endless possibilities. Superstring theory hypothesizes the existence of multiple dimensions of existence far beyond our local space-time continuum.

WHAT??!! I actually wrote on the sidebar “you have got to be kidding!” I have no idea what he is talking about and I’m sure it’s not his problem! Anyway, chalk that up to one of the mysteries of life for me. I love the way he ends the book:

Truth is found as we get lost in the mystery of faith. You can maintain your bearings while getting lost…if Jesus is leading the way. There is a time to leave words behind for a walkabout with Jesus of listening and seeing and adoring a world rimmed with sunsets but brimming with sunrises. As Henry Ward Beecher, one of the great preachers of the nineteenth century, drew his last breath, he uttered his final words:

“Here comes the Mystery…”

Random Thoughts

Here are a few things I’ve been considering recently –

Words - A few days ago a journalist for The Salvation Army’s Swedish magazine told me he liked my writing style because it was ‘simple.’ I know he meant that as a compliment and I took it that way. But, afterward I started thinking about what that meant. I’ve always tried to improve my vocabulary and I know I have a ‘folksy’ style but still I like to write with descriptive words and variety. But, since I’ve come to Latvia, I have had to simplify my style. I can’t be too descriptive or use uncommon words because either I’m being translated or the person I’m talking with isn’t a first language English speaker (weird phrase.) I also am a parenthetical writer and speaker as you can tell from my blog writing. That’s why I like Paul’s writings – he is the same way and I understand it. I don’t always agree, but I get it. Anyway, sometimes I feel like I’m forgetting how to speak intelligently and with any depth. But, once in a while I know the Spirit does intervene and I’m able to have real, intimate conversations. And in all of this, I hope I’m learning to communicate more clearly so that wherever I am and whoever I’m talking with will really be able to hear and understand. That will be a valuable lesson from Latvia.

Asterisks – Eric has a blog named ‘Asterisks’ and I’m intrigued by that idea. I didn’t really begin to think about it until I was in the UK to observe a conference. In the program, my presence was indicated by an asterisk. Every time I was to sit in on an interview or group project there was an asterisk next to the delegate’s name. You can imagine their concern when the * was first noticed and there was no explanation provided. So, I became the asterisk for the weekend. Did that mean I was significant or not to be noticed? I wonder. When I put * next to something in my Bible somewhere else on that page you will find my thoughts on the text or a quote from a speaker I’ve heard. It’s something to be remembered and maybe to ponder on later. It’s important at the time, but is it really significant – does it become a life changing sign? Not usually. Hmmm…

www.asterisklog.com


Hospitality – My flat is unusually large for Latvia and especially for a single person. I’m very grateful for its comfort and space. I do feel at home here. But, I have begun to think that it’s important to share this blessing. Last year my small group met here and it was fun. I’m trying to make it more available and accessible for people to stop by and have a cup of tea or just to say hello and talk for a few minutes. And I’m trying to make myself more available for conversations and sharing. This week feels like a successful one in that area. My small group came and I could hardly get them to leave. On Friday, Veronika, Dana and Marina came over for dinner and we had so much fun. They even were gracious enough to look at all of my photo albums (bless them!) Today I had a nice lunch with Guna at a new (for us) restaurant and we sat for a long time talking. Then a few minutes later Linda and Erika called to say they were coming over and spent quite a while talking, listening to music and enjoying a quiet Sunday afternoon together. I feel very blessed.

Unpredictable Mystery

I know I just posted something, but I can’t wait to share these thoughts from Leonard Sweet (I’m almost done with the book, finally!)
     
     “The Bible delivers a warning sign on every page, saying, “Beware all who enter.  You can never be the same again.”
     “If you haven’t gotten lost in some mystery today, it hasn’t been much of a day.”
     “How unpredictable is your life?  How open is your life and your church to alternate realities?”

(Evie’s comment – not ‘new age’ alternative stuff, but a new perspective and unexpected paths…sounds like fun to me!)

     

A day of Grace

Some days start out feeling like disasters and then grace comes along. Today was one of those. I went to prayers and just felt grouchy about the whole day – mostly because I was overwhelmed and didn’t know what to do about it. Instead of attacking everyone I went home for a few minutes to calm down and pray. It wasn’t helping or I wasn’t letting myself settle down. I had a meeting all morning and it didn’t help, so I headed for home hoping to get some work done and thinking maybe that would help. I did get a lot done and I felt energy coming that I didn’t know I had. Then I had a really nice conversation with Dace, my neighbor and along come her roommate, Evita who I needed to talk to. So, along with good conversation, I could check something off of my list. Then Sarah stopped by and we had a great talk about all kinds of things. It was what I needed. By the end of the day, I felt like God had given me lots of grace moments, even more than I’ve written here, and He had been faithful to my morning prayer of desperation.

Small group conversations

I just had the nicest evening with my small group. I think we need to come up with a more original name but otherwise I love everything about this group. Tonight was our first meeting for this season. There are a few changes which will make the dynamics of the group very different. Our strongest girls (sisters) will probably not be part of the group – one has moved to the USA to go to school and the other just got accepted as a flight attendant with Air Baltic. She may come once in a while, but her schedule will be crazy. We’ve added two girls – Aija, a brand new Christian who is eager to get very involved and so joined the group to be part of the Sunday School teaching team. I’m not sure she knew that our study and fellowship group was part of it. Anyway, she is a joy to watch as she grows in her faith and will be a nice addition. The other, Vika, is a new girl to our corps who has been looking for a place to worship and serve. She is young but vocal and definitely growing in her relationship with the Lord. There are 4 more who will be returning and they are all delightful, fun and eager to learn and be together. It will be a good year.

We spent the last hour or so (they stayed late) talking about the overwhelming use of tobacco, drugs and alcohol in the public schools and in Latvia, in general. They have very strong feelings against the use of any of these things and have taken a stand with their friends and peers. They talked more tonight about their own life and the choices they have made to be pure and true to their beliefs than they ever did last year. I am very proud of them but also feel a sort of desperate need to pray for their protection from this crazy world. And I am convinced they need to be teaching the Sunday School kids because they will give them good guidance and training.

The fun part was our interaction with language! They all want to practice English and I want to learn Latvian. Sometimes our conversations get pretty crazy but it’s so much fun. They are doing much better than I in improving their skills. But, they are patient and do want to help me. I am so grateful that the Lord has put this little extra blessing into my life in Latvia.

Worship and a wedding

Today was a wonderful day at Riga 1 corps. One of the families who are attached to the corps through Patverums (day center for kids) asked Sarah, corps leader, if they could renew their wedding vows at the corps. They’ve been married for years legally, but never had a church (blessed) wedding. Sarah decided to incorporate it into worship today. Everyone was so excited. The mom is special, needing lots of attention, but obviously very loving toward her family. So, we weren’t really sure how it all would work but knew it would be fun. They showed up early all dressed in their best and Leonita even wore white. Sarah did a great job with the ceremony and they were beaming like newlyweds. The kids were so proud, too. It was very meaningful and the spiritual significance was clear to them and to the congregation.

I got to be part of the worship team today. I feel like they are just being nice when they ask because they know I love to sing, but its fun anyway. And I’m feeling pretty confident about singing in Latvian. Today I actually felt like I was worshipping with some understanding of what I was singing. And I love being able to watch others worship – seeing how they respond to certain themes and how the Spirit moves through the congregation. I was especially moved when we sang ‘Nebaidisos, tu esi Dievs’ which means “I will not fear, You are God” (or something like that.) Alina, one of the girls in my group is leaving tomorrow for a year in America at a mission school. Of course, she is worried about things and she leaves her fiancé here, too. I have to admit, I’m a little concerned, too. As we were singing I was overwhelmed by the sense of that song being just for her and her family. There are so many more stories about people who need that assurance, including me. I found great comfort in those words today.

Picture: Alina, Evie and Olesja (sisters)







Add to this day, another lovely day, yesterday. Zoe, Graeme and Sian invited me to go sightseeing in Lielvarde, a nice little Latvian town. We had a really nice time wondering around a sculpture park and an old wooden castle. It wasn’t the most fabulous tourist spot, but it was nice to spend time together and to be out in the fresh air. Sian is getting to be pretty funny and very expressive. My favorite moment was when I went walking away from them and she yelled, “Evie, wait” and came after me. Nothing special, just a good moment. And I thank God for those moments.


Picture: Zoe and Sian at the castle

Renewed and Exhausted

I am so tired! I feel like I haven't had a chance to process (not sure I like that word) one thing and the next significant something has started. This is a good tired though, because what's happening is great and I feel like I'm headed toward a really important place - both for me and for our work in Latvia. Here's what the last few weeks have been like:

Vacation in Sweden - I spent 5 beautiful days touring around Sweden with my friend, Birgitta. She gave me such a gift by driving me around and walking all over the place, even to places she had seen before. We had lots of talks about life, history and the future - some pretty intense but all helpful. We also laughed much and ate lots of good food. One of my favorite parts of those days was having lunch every day outside, often near the water. They were restful and renewing days. In the midst of the historical tour of Sweden I got to spend an evening with Johanna and Andres who are young and contagiously enthusiastic about being part of Kingdom work in Sweden. They also patiently listened to my stories about Latvia and about Steve and Ketsia in Haiti. Being with them reminded me again of how much I love working with and being in the presence of young(er) adults. People who are discovering God's way in their lives and look at life from a different angle. Personal renewal came through seeing the beauty of God's creation and, although it wasn't always easy, getting a different perspective from Birgitta about life here.

Alpha in Latvia - I returned to hurriedly get ready for the first Alpha training conference in Latvia, which Pestisanas Armija was hosting and I was managing. We had wonderful and energetic guests from Denmark who were such fun and also a nice retired couple from the UK who shared their passion for Alpha. While it was a lot of work, it was a joy, too. We had fun, got inspired and enjoyed each other's company. For me, the greatest joy was spending time with pastors from other denominations. I have been in Salvation Army isolation since being here and it was like a breath of fresh air to sit at meals with a Catholic priest or a Lutheran lay minister and share in our common purpose. This was a landmark event in so many ways, but mostly we all felt that God was and is trying to do something exciting in Latvia through our meeting together. It may be Alpha or it may be the ecumenical experience, but there is no doubt that God did wonderful things and opened our eyes to new possibilities.

Assessment Conference in the UK - Two days later I was on my way to London to join their Candidate Assessment Conference as an observer. We need a process for reviewing and accepting Candidates for officer training and I was there to steal what I could! I love London!!!! So, it was no hardship to make this trip. And I love my friends, Steve and Morag who live there. We spent one day together before the conference started walking around London, seeing the new IHQ and mostly, talking as fast as we could about everything since we haven't seen each other for over a year. For me, one day in London is almost painful, because it just makes me want to come back and spend a week! So, maybe I will. On to the assessment conference...it's an intensive time of interviews and projects and review. I sat in on several different things, but mostly had to keep my mouth shut (you can imagine how hard that was.) Fortunately, there were some free moments and meal times when I could have lovely conversations with some of the candidates and team. I've already said how inspired I am by youthful people, so once again I found myself enchanted by several younger adults who were lively and even seemed to be interested in my story! One of my favorite people was a not so young woman who lives by the sea and has a peaceful and encouraging manner. I could have sat and talked with her for hours. Maybe a visit to the sea will have to be on my holiday agenda. Another joy was getting to know the assessment team, who accepted me into their fellowship right away. It's one of the characteristics of the Salvation Army that I love - you can be at home anywhere when you are with other Salvationists. The conference gave me plenty to think about and will be a great starting point for what we do here.

But, as often happens, the Lord also had something for me. First, I took a little personality survey that each of the delegates took. It is computerized and spit out my results saying "YOU ARE IN TRANSITION"!!!! It then went on to describe how crazy I have been feeling this year. I wasn't surprised - it's not magic. I gave it these answers and knew that by the nature of the survey I would show up this way. Anyway, I had a bit of quiet time and decided to read. I also needed to prepare my testimony for one of the sessions. In the midst of that time, the Lord clearly told me that I have been struggling too much, trying to work out every question, every hard thing, every uncertainty with my own answers. Instead, He wants me to enjoy the questions (ala Leonard Sweet) and most importantly, enjoy the journey. He'll take care of the rest. That is so freeing for me. Now, I need to put it into practice and see what God has for me tomorrow! And now you know why I'm so tired!

Home

Some days I really want to be home and I think today is one of them. I'm really tired too so I'm sure that is affecting my feelings. I just had a note about my friend Pam who is going through really tough days, as are her friends as they help care for her. I'd love to be home to help out and support them during this time. And some events here in the last few days have made me wonder if I really belong here. So, the combination makes me just want to go home. But, that's not going to happen (nor should it) so I have to find a way to offer support and love to Pam from here. And I have to figure out what role I'm supposed to fill here, outside of the job I'm assigned to. Maybe later I'll write more about the basis for my 'out of place' feelings. I'm not at all miserable, just wondering...in fact, on the other hand I feel more comfortable and a part of the team than I ever have. We've had a lot of fun this week - it's kind of a strange mixture of emotions. Now I'm going to sleep and maybe tomorrow it will all be clear.

Love quietly

2 quotes from Paul in 1 Thessalonians for today: Love more and more ...and...mind your own business (NLT) I have been wondering how to do both at the same time! It is an interesting opportunity for me because I think I most often express love as I get involved in people's lives. Right now there are some issues which I need to stay out of but I do believe I need to practice loving relationships while keeping my mouth shut. A challenge for me but I know the Lord can make it happen! (Now, I know that I'm taking these two statements out of context but they struck me as very important and connected for my life today.)

Words, words, words

Language is going to be one of the struggles and I'm afraid it will be the one to bring me a lot of discouragement and frustration and helplessness. I had a few of those moments today. It's not about me being able to speak the language. At this point, that's the least important thing. It's about finding the person/people who can accurately translate between Latvian and English, plus Russian. That seems to be eluding me and I confess my great impatience. I don't want to hurt the feelings of those who are helping me now. It's just that I need more. On a lighter note - I'm going to Sweden tomorrow for a few days of vacation. I'm meeting my friend Birgitta and she's going to take me exploring the country. I know I just had some time away but this is the only time available for us to meet, so here I go!

Lessons from the Word

This summer I joined the Riga 2 corps Bible Study in reading the book of Matthew. Yesterday I finished it. I love reading the Bible because I always learn something new or gain a different understanding of even familiar passages. Perspective has something to do with it. So, this time unintentionally, I think I read it from Jesus’ perspective of training His disciples. What better model for me to use to design our training program? Not necessarily the curriculum, but my relationship with the cadets and the whole mentoring plan. I love His teaching method – stories and questions. There is an overwhelming aspect to this, too. What a great responsibility I’ve been given which will have lasting impact on the future of Pestišanas Armija. So, I decided the next thing I need to read is something from Paul, as he provided direction and ‘leadership training’ to the early Church. I started today with Thessalonians and then will move on to Timothy. Here’s what I read today:

1 Thess. 1: [4] For we know, brothers loved by God, that he has chosen you, [5] because our gospel came to you not simply with words, but also with power, with the Holy Spirit and with deep conviction. You know how we lived among you for your sake. [6] You became imitators of us and of the Lord; in spite of severe suffering, you welcomed the message with the joy given by the Holy Spirit.

So much to think about in that paragraph. My first thought was that my prayer would be that verse 5 would be true of me. I wonder what the people here think about my living here? Verse 6 is frightening in some ways – first that anyone would imitate me but what I was most impressed with was this thought of suffering. I have a sense that we will experience a lot of trouble as we prepare for training and during the program. It’s such a great opportunity for expanding the gospel in Latvia that there will be opposition. I have no idea where it will come from but I believe we (I) have to be prepared. I need my friends to pray for protection for me and those who have so willingly responded to God’s call in this way. Protection from what? I’ve been thinking about that today – attitudes, egos, discouragement, fear, an overwhelming sense of it all. But, mostly, I feel that we need protection from personal sin. Because this whole thing is dependent on a few individuals, we (I) need to be very aware of keeping my own life pure and my relationship with the Lord alive and growing. If you think about us – pray, please!

Saturday in Riga

Today was one of those days that I absolutely love. It's Saturday, I have nothing planned, no urgent work, a semi-clean house, and it isn't raining! So, I slept in a bit and then took off for the center of the city. Have I said before "I love Riga!"? I do - it's architecture and art in general. The great historical significance of the Old city always amazes me. So many layers of history to learn and to use to understand the people and the culture. I headed to Melngalvju Nams (House of Blackheads). In the past I've been so fascinated just walking around that I've hardly stepped inside any of the museums. Today I went in and I'm so glad I did. Again, the history surrounding the building is incredible - everything is older than anything in the US! And the layers of war and occupation are very evident in this great building. I asked one of the guides about a small sculpture in Latvian "Kas tas ir?" or what is that? She fell for it and began a whole history lesson in Latvian. The wonderful thing was that I understand at least half. And when I had to confess ignorance, she thought I must speak Russian. It may not seem like such a big deal, but I love the moments when I am not automatically identified as American. She kept talking in Latvian and we had a lovely time. She urged me to look through the rest of the building where there are sculptures, paintings and lavish banquet rooms, too. And apparently, there is some African significance to the title. I didn't realize it before, but there are pictures and all kinds of artistic works of a black man named Maurice. I have to get that story because that is not like anything else in Latvia. From there I went to Dome Square and wondered around the Dome Cathedral. I couldn't go in because there was a wedding, but they had a cool stained glass exhibition and lots of relics around the inner court. That ended my sightseeing - I went shopping at the Stockman's Department store - very American and there are a couple of things I like to buy there once in a while. It's also a fun place to hear all of the languages spoken there - everyone non-Latvian or Russian eventually ends up there, as do many locals. I bought just enough to fill my backpack then headed home. It's a good walk and it was a nice, cool but not cold day. Perfect for walking. After unloading the backpack, I got my hair cut - always an adventure. This time a man cut my hair "Gunars" - he was great. As far as I could tell the only English word he knew was 'short', but that's what I needed so we were just fine! I returned to welcome home Graeme, Zoe and Sian from their vacation. Now, I'm fixing a nice meal and plan to read or watch a movie for the rest of the evening. I'm a happy girl!

A Day in Latvia

Because I’m creating a new program, there isn’t much routine to my days. I’m most often working from home which is not my best setting – I’m easily distracted and because there aren’t a lot of urgent tasks I don’t feel motivated to work very hard. I’m a project oriented person and much of what I should be doing now is simply studying and organizing to get ready for training to begin. I know that once the training program opens, I’ll be so busy I won’t have the luxury of distractions. But, that’s when I’m at my best, so I look forward to it.

So, here’s what I did today. I’m getting the application forms for training ready, but as with most things that doesn’t involve a lot of work by me. It mainly requires finding people to translate from English to Latvian, Latvian to Russian, Swedish to Latvian to English to Russian, etc. This is the biggest frustration about my work, because I have no control over the quality or even the ability to double check. So, the applications arrived from Sweden and I had first to find a Latvian who can read Swedish and translate it to Latvian. Then, so that I could know what the forms said, it had to be translated from Latvian into English. Getting that done has taken several months. Once I had an idea of what the forms said, I had to do some editing (in English) to make them appropriate for our needs. Today I sat for a couple of hours with Henrik and went over all of the documents. He is Danish and reads some Swedish and has good English skills. He read through the Swedish forms while I attempted to decipher the Latvian and made changes on the English. Then I have to have the Latvian corrected. And by the way, we are having the forms translated from Latvian to Russian, too.

While we were in the middle of today, it seemed like just a normal day. But, when you think about what we were trying to do – it’s pretty funny and in my more cynical moments, I would say it’s ridiculous to think that we could have any kind of acceptable documents from our work. But, we are all we’ve got. I mean there are others who could have replaced one of us at our skill level, but no one who is expert in what we were doing.
This was just a taste of what I’ll be trying to do when I get applications turned in, written in Latvian and Russian. And then I can’t even think about how I’ll handle homework during the training program! This is a miracle of God’s grace and probably, patience! and we have to have those kinds of miracles every day if this is really supposed to happen.

A Year in Latvia

A year ago yesterday I arrived in Latvia. Someone suggested that the year had gone by very quickly, but honestly, it's been one of the longest years of my life! A whole year of every single thing being new and with primarily a computer to help me process all of it. Yes, the computer has helped me use my friends from around the world for adjusting and coping and I can't imagine what I would have done without that access. The newness is starting to slow down, but still there are tasks that come up that I have to get up the courage to do on my own or the humility to ask for help. Both things that I needed to learn and am learning daily. A recent 'new experience' example - I had to get a rental car washed before returning it a couple of weeks ago. In the past, I've either just paid the extra fee not to wash it or asked someone to do it for me. But, I was certain that I could now take the car to the station and drive it through the wash without help. I mean, how many dozens of times have I done that in the States? Well, I know the word for card is 'carte' and the little machine said put your 'carte' here (in Latvian!) So, I put my debit card in the slot but I quickly figured out that's not the kind of card they meant! Now my debit card was stuck, there was a car waiting behind me and I had to go confess that I had broken the machine. Not me - I took a pen or something from my purse and starting pulling on my card and in a one of those grace moments, it came out. Now I still have to go buy the right kind of card in the station. The man behind me spoke English and suggested I should pull out and let him go through, which I did. Well, it all ended happily but was a reminder that I am not self-sufficient yet! When I say longest, I don't mean it's been the hardest year - I've had much harder (stories for another time). It's been a great and amazing year in many ways and certainly a challenge and stretching year, which is what I felt God was calling me to. Just long and often difficult and a bit lonely. Even as I write that I realize I've been very fortunate to have so many people around me who have become friends. I know there are many 'missionaries' who don't have the blessing of fellowship that I have here. Earlier in the year my friend Carolyn wrote and asked me what was as I had expected and what was different. That set me on quite a thought process and I started to make a list. I want to look it over, edit a bit and then I'll post it. All week I had been planning on making yesterday a retreat and renewal day. I wasn't going anywhere, just stay in the house and read through my journal, write, pray and make some goals for my second year. Of course, it didn't happen. Thursday had been a very long and exhausting day. Henrik, Lisbeth and I met from 10a.m. until after 6p.m., including going to lunch together. It was a productive and good day - we talked about some detail work, but mostly talked about the big picture for Pestisanas Armija in Latvia. Our own roles and the future when we will be gone. More than any other time, I felt we were all heading in the same direction and I felt a lot of freedom to really share my impressions and vision. Anyway, I was of course too tired to spend the next day in the same kind of mode. So, I worked in the morning and then crashed most of the rest of the day - another kind of retreat! When I find the right day to try retreating I'll probably have lots to write down here. And what we did on Thursday will help me with my goals. (if someone reading this knows how to make paragraphs in these posts, would you let me know - I'm still learning)

Something new...

Have you ever had the feeling that God was trying to tell you something? Here's what I read last night from Leonard Sweet: "Embrace chaos...Only chaos brings forth new ideas, new experiences, and new energies, because only chaos is open and receiving, ready for change...Order is what already is; it's status quo. chaos is what can be; it's phase transition...Seek the order within the chaos, not the order imposed on the chaos." This is definitely a chaos kind of place for me - mostly because I have no idea what comes next. Combine this with my reflections on new wineskins which has been amazing. As I was preparing for my sermon the Lord really spoke to me about being ready for everything old to be replaced with something new. And an understanding that the new might be uncomfortable and even painful (like new shoes) but the result will be something amazing. Rev. 21:5 - I am making everything new! and Lamentations 3 - God's mercies are new every morning! I need to expect God's newness every day and I need to be ready for it, in case it comes in a difficult package. Usually I would just ignore the sense of impending hardship, but I can't really avoid this idea of 'newness' coming from so many different directions. And I can't wait to see what God has planned. It's all part of the journey and the mystery.